huricane

i almost feel like i shouldn’t
be alone
i almost feel like an eye
of the storm
searching for a place
to calm down and stay

come along with me
before
the autumn leaves fall
enjoy
the colors from above
transitions of gray

tide

I knew...
Somehow...
That I had to stay alive.
Somehow.
I had to keep breathing.
Even though there was no reason to hope.
And all my logic said that I will never see this place again.
So that’s what I did.
I stayed alive.
I kept breathing.
And then one day that logic was proven all wrong.
Because the tide...
Came in, and gave me a sail.
And now, here I am.
I’m back...
In Memphis, talking to you.
I have ice in my glass.
And I've lost her all over again
I’m so sad that I don't have Kelly.
But I'm so grateful that she was with me on that island.
And I know what I have to do now.
I gotta keep breathing.
Because tomorrow, the sun will rise.
Who knows what the tide could bring?

Tom Hanks, Castaway

alone

what i do know
seams not what i truly care for
its just a lure to keep you near
ahead of fear from alone

i left my love in the big city
my little flower tulipan
it might take another lifetime
to forgive me what i've done

i must take my journey east
to the land of the samurai
to ocupy my mind and soul
ahead of fear from alone

*this i wrote back in april, few days before i rejected the job offer in japan

feel like

feel like a jew in germany
feel like rage in insanity
sorry i couldn't call you mother
they've been bombing our country

feel like crying out loud
feel like a hunger strike
feel like stop the war or
i'll commit suicide

this is the saddest i could be for free

*this is something i wrote during the nato bombing of serbia and montenegro few years ago...

vuk samotnjak

iz karantina u karantin
iz ljubavi u mrznju
napred nazad
kroz plac i smeh
glupo i nesmotreno
vredjam i cinim srecnim
lomim se i starim jak
vuk samotnjak

stari mlin

ti
koja si bez kuce
bez krova
bez glave
hladno klices
sa tri prsta dises
i tako ponovo
iz dana u dan
jutrom se budis
nasmejana
sama
bericetna i spremna
da pogledas zivot u oci
i okrenes se jos jednom
u vodi ledenoj
i ljutoj

32

walking down
the streets of my hometown
old faces i remember
looks i cannot forget
in an instance
i became a man
brave and strong
as the river after storm

ćud

kraj puta nikad neću naći
na kraju puta je samo moja ćud
moja ćud je nepredvidiva
kao i kraj mog puta

uvek nadjem svoje mesto
prilagodim se vrlo lako
to je mapa moje ćudi
hrana za moj um

kilimanjaro

take me far
away from thoughts
distance I thought
would make it clear

cut my legs off
my arms too
take me on a trip
never let me sleep

we'll dance tango
at the delta okavango
and see the snows of
kilimanjaro

monster blue

blue monster save me
i'd like to be free
i love you boucoup
kao boku kotorsku

some things you see
only when too late
when the colors change
blue monster rage

butterfly

happy days, closing in on me
virgin galactic called today
to talk about the space flight
when i’m up there in the sky
you will hear my voice, your name
you will see my face, smiling
with my eyes wide open
asking you to be my butterfly

travelosphemy

so take me safe
make me brave
let me rave
safe and sound
and then forget
what I’ve said
traveling south
yes i do, travel too
where we've met
don't answer the phone

ljubav i sujeta - diskusija

[02:33] sinisav: sta bi
[02:33] sinisav: ne seri
[02:33] pakaze: da
[02:33] pakaze: :)
[02:33] sinisav: nije moguce
[02:33] pakaze: lol
[02:34] sinisav: eh sad
[02:34] sinisav: mislim ludilo
[02:34] pakaze: devojchica mi prezivela pozar
[02:34] pakaze: jadna
[02:34] pakaze: plakala ko luda
[02:34] sinisav: uh
[02:34] sinisav: uzbuna
[02:34] pakaze: kako mi je zao sto nisam tamo
[02:34] pakaze: zato idem sutra
[02:34] sinisav: znam
[02:34] pakaze: lud sam
[02:34] pakaze: ali takve sreca prati
[02:34] sinisav: ludi si
[02:35] pakaze: boli me kurac i za pare i za sve
[02:35] sinisav: sreca od pozara
[02:35] sinisav: ma kapiram
[02:35] sinisav: ides
[02:35] sinisav: ?
[02:35] pakaze: jace je od razuma
[02:35] pakaze: volim je
[02:36] sinisav: voli je brate
[02:36] sinisav: tako treba
[02:36] pakaze: vazi
[02:36] sinisav: voljeti je vrlina
[02:36] pakaze: to je sve sto ima smisla
[02:36] pakaze: ovo ostalo nije vredno
[02:37] sinisav: ma jeste
[02:37] sinisav: ali imaju prioriteti
[02:37] pakaze: lovu uvek mogu da napravim
[02:37] sinisav: idi brate
[02:37] pakaze: pa to je moj prioritet
[02:37] sinisav: nema sta da brines
[02:37] sinisav: boli te kita
[02:37] sinisav: :)
[02:37] sinisav: smao se toga seti
[02:38] sinisav: i sve ce biti u redu
[02:38] pakaze: videces o cemu pricam jednog dana
[02:38] pakaze: ili vec jesi
[02:38] sinisav: vini vidi vici
[02:38] pakaze: pa si se izlecio od toga
[02:38] pakaze: sad znas sta radis
[02:38] sinisav: ma jok brate
[02:38] pakaze: pa to
[02:38] sinisav: kod mene je duplo
[02:38] pakaze: znam
[02:38] sinisav: pa bezim malo oko sveta
[02:38] pakaze: znam
[02:39] sinisav: ali sveta mozda nema
[02:39] pakaze: mogu da se opkladim da ces uvideti stvari koje ovde ne mozes nikad da shvatis
[02:39] sinisav: pa cu da se vrtim malo oko samog sebe
[02:39] sinisav: ma da
[02:39] sinisav: to sto imas ne smes da pustis
[02:40] sinisav: ali ako ispustis opet ces ga naci
[02:40] sinisav: ljubav se uvek nadje
[02:40] pakaze: svakako
[02:40] sinisav: dakle, voli, to je sve sto mozes
[02:40] pakaze: ne bih se brinuo da imam 9 zivota
[02:40] pakaze: u tome je caka
[02:40] sinisav: ma imao si ih i vise
[02:41] sinisav: uvek ih imas vise
[02:41] pakaze: sto su granice postavljene
[02:41] sinisav: a 9 je samo broj
[02:41] sinisav: da se zna red
[02:41] sinisav: :)
[02:41] sinisav: i prioriteti
[02:41] pakaze: ne volim ja nju zbog sebe
[02:41] pakaze: to bi bilo sebicno
[02:42] pakaze: neprocenjiva je sloboda uma kad sujeta nije umesana
[02:42] pakaze: vanity
[02:42] pakaze: my favorite sin
[02:42] sinisav: ako verujes da sujeta postoji
[02:43] pakaze: neograniceno davanje ljubavi u razlicitim oblicima razbije granice
[02:43] pakaze: ovaj oblik je najsladji
[02:43] sinisav: hehehhehe
[02:43] sinisav: zene, zene, pokrecu sve, politiku i nogomet
[02:43] pakaze: dok serem, ja shvatam nove stvari
[02:44] pakaze: sokratov efekat
[02:44] sinisav: eureka!
[02:44] pakaze: dok predajes i pricas s drugima, razvijas svoje misli
[02:44] sinisav: i papin
[02:44] pakaze: on umro
[02:44] pakaze: johnyy cocran
[02:45] pakaze: terry schivo
[02:45] pakaze: podseca te na ono sto je vazno
[02:45] pakaze: smrt oko nas
[02:45] pakaze: samo treba obratiti paznju
[02:45] sinisav: uh, bezi bre
[02:45] sinisav: a zasto
[02:45] sinisav: obrati brate paznju na nesto zivo
[02:45] pakaze: onda shvatis kako je lepo sto smo zivi
[02:45] sinisav: po mogucnosti
[02:46] sinisav: sem piletine, curetine i ostalih kombinaicja
[02:46] sinisav: :)
[02:46] pakaze: ja, ja
[02:46] sinisav: hehehehe
[02:46] pakaze: niko, niko, kao ja
[02:46] pakaze: ja volim samo sebe i jedino sebe
[02:47] pakaze: vanity
[02:47] sinisav: i sta ti je za cinit?
[02:47] pakaze: my favorite sin
[02:47] pakaze: ne znam
[02:47] pakaze: idem na kratko da ugasim pozar...u srcu
[02:47] pakaze: pa onda opet nazad
[02:47] pakaze: mozda cak i nadjem tamo posao u medjuvremenu
[02:47] sinisav: ne ides ti da ga gasis moj prijatelju
[02:47] pakaze: ispipacu teren za ubuduce
[02:48] pakaze: niti zelim
[02:48] sinisav: ides ti da ga malo razbudis
[02:48] pakaze: ne znam da li si ikad ovoliko patio. Cisto da se ne trudim da ti objasnjavam
[02:48] sinisav: pozaru treba upaljac
[02:49] pakaze: pre no sto sam neleteo na nju mislio sam da sam emocionalno umor
[02:49] pakaze: umro
[02:49] sinisav: idi bre na fiji
[02:49] pakaze: lepo je to
[02:49] sinisav: meni sve ovo daje neke inspiracije
[02:49] pakaze: i treba
[02:49] sinisav: da krenem nesto grugo
[02:49] sinisav:
[02:50] pakaze: samo zapamti da ti na fiji-u nece cekati zivotni odgovori
[02:50] sinisav: mozda dobro ime za bend
[02:50] sinisav: nesto drugo
[02:50] pakaze: dobro je da ides sam
[02:50] pakaze: da razmisljas svojom glavom
[02:50] pakaze: ovde ti je um pometen
[02:50] pakaze: idi ga rascisti malo
[02:51] sinisav: da
[02:51] sinisav: ali se bojim
[02:51] pakaze: kolko ja vidim
[02:51] sinisav: brate moj svega
[02:51] pakaze: pa prestani
[02:51] sinisav: ali strah mi daje nesto novo
[02:51] pakaze: da se bojis zivota
[02:51] pakaze: breeee
[02:51] pakaze: nemas cega da se bojis
[02:51] sinisav: ma jok bre kakav zivot
[02:51] pakaze: nego
[02:51] pakaze: ?
[02:52] sinisav: strah onako, samo emotivan
[02:52] sinisav: ne existencijalan
[02:52] pakaze: pa to je to
[02:52] sinisav: hehehhee
[02:52] sinisav: to je to
[02:52] pakaze: Albert Cami
[02:52] pakaze: Camu
[02:53] pakaze: je dobar materijal za citanje ako si u toj fazi
[02:53] pakaze: trust me
[02:53] sinisav: aha
[02:53] sinisav: nesto specificno
[02:54] sinisav: The First Man
[02:55] pakaze: kratak essay: "mit o Sizifu"
[02:55] pakaze: dacu ti kopiju
[02:55] pakaze: za put:)
[02:55] sinisav: hehehe
[02:55] sinisav: OK
[02:55] pakaze: a moze i "Stranac"

etoile

etoile it is
and a yellow house
in summer of love
forever and then
i will always know
to come back home
to you my love

in my dreams tonight...

if i was a little mouse
hidden in your pocket pouch
we would fly your rocket house
munching chocolate on the couch